I am being hit by a double whammy of sad.

I've just been released - all the interview stuff is over, and I feel sad. I don't think i particularly excelled; i tanked in my first interview, and my second interview was fine, but i don't think i necessarily distinguished myself. The course is wildly over-subscribed this year - there are 5 of us for every place. And everyone is wonderful and bright and brilliant.

It's a double whammy of sad, though, because not only am i facing the prospect of not being able to do a course i love (the only other place that offers anything even remotely similar is UCL, and UCL require biology), but in the last 4 days, i have fallen head over heels in love with oxford and the oxford student life, the college system, the city and the students and the history of it all. I can inmagine myself here so perfectly and so comfortably - i don't want to give it up.

Oh well. I'll hear for certain on the 21st, but between now and then i don't want to get my hopes up because, well - a pleasant suprise is better than absolute crushing disapointment over christmas. Hence, i'm really not looking for - it might be you! Everyone thought their interviews went badly! type comments.

Le sigh.

QUICK UPDATE ON THINGS THAT ARE AWESOME

....I totally have a 4 day interview at Oxford next week? :PPPPP I am nervous but also kinda excited.

I (and my team mates) totally WON THE BAR MOCK TRIAL COMPETITION FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 25 YEARS. I can lawyer like shizzle. It's a big deal, and we all spent weeks writing speeches and preparing our cases and holy shit we WON and it was amazing.

I went to Lyon last week and it was fabulous! I stayed with vilde and we ate sushi and painted nails and danced and got fat. Oh my god so fat. But. yes.

Stuff that isn't so great

In a month, I have 5 exams that i HAVE to get all A's on otherwise having the oxford interview will make no difference. For one of the exams, i haven't even opened the textbook. I literally do not know anything on the ENTIRE EXAM. Tis dire. I will be having a totally lame christmas. x_x

Other than that! I am fat, happy, have a social life, eat cake and drink skinny lattes and procrastinate lots. :D See you guys at the end of term? Or maybe when i'm in oxford. I'll have 4 days to post things there.

I have become obsessed with Supernatural again....and slash pairings...WHYYYYYYYY? I don't have enough time to be swooning over hot male tv characters! Dangnabbit. But I am. And it's oh so good. Hehe. :P Now back to the essay! While I daydream.....sigh.....